Self Doubt 01.06.2020

Posted by Chantell Suggs on

When I decided to add a blog post to the website I was terrified. Not about writing, because I've always been good with words but because it's always terrifying to put yourself out there. 

I recently went back to work (a corporate job, even though this IS my full-time job) and as expected it's been kicking me in the butt. 

Not just because I've been home with my girls for years, but because this Boutique takes up so much of my life. I knew when I started this I was signing my life away. I knew (or so I thought) what I was getting myself into. YEA RIGHT! Doing this on my own has probably been the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

I'm always very open about my struggle with depression, anxiety, and being bipolar.  I have my manic days, I have my lows and highs. Struggling with mental illness is a trial in itself. Add in a career, a DREAM, that puts you on display and that is intensified by a thousand. 

I always strive to put my customers first. I have an open line of communication, I will answer messages on weekends, when I should be cleaning my house, in the middle of the night. 

I am OBSESSED with my customers. You, special, wonderful, loyal people are the reason I am able to do the things I do. Why my girls look at mommy, at home, always on her phone or laptop and know I'm working. They know I'm doing the things I do to make a better life for them (although they simply think it's to buy them Robux). 

I'm writing this, 3 days from my relaunch date. When I have to be up to get my youngest to school, come home and clean, cook dinner, and work on my website, ALL before heading off to work. Then repeat. Am I ready? NO. It's terrifying putting myself out there again for the world to see (and judge), but I wouldn't have it any other way.

To conclude; I share because I care; because I want you to KNOW me, the same way I want to know all of YOU. 

 

Love,

Chantell (The Unlikely Fashionista) 


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